Trust

Shortly after praying the rosary one night, and ending with a prayer asking God to give me what He thinks is the best elective for me, I got the e-mail. The e-mail from Carolyn Cook. That name... It took me a few seconds to associate that name with the institution I wanted to go to for my electives so badly. It was regarding "Elective Decision" as the subject of the e-mail had read. I found out that Oxford was not meant to be. I felt crushed. I didn't expect the message to come this early. They said they would tell me towards the end of November... I wasn't mentally prepared. I felt sad. I felt hopeless. But then, the next day, I thought: I prayed to God before the e-mail came. Obviously He felt that Oxford wasn't the best choice for me. And I have come to terms with that. I prayed so that God would give me the best elective He thinks I can have. I am sure he has better plans for me even though it wasn't what I had hoped for initially. I have put my trust in him regarding this matter since. But one day, if it is His will, I still hope to study at Oxford or another major institution. For now, all I can do is trust in Him.